I've spent the last two months working around one sole issue currently looming large over my life- my marriage. Starting from meeting the guy and his family in late March to getting engaged last week. I am through with this now. The very thought of the upcoming event makes me want to throw up. In fact I did throw up an hour ago. There is only so much a girl can take! I have been running around the whole damn place working on everything, from the smallest details to the biggest of them all that would go on to make the event. The engagement last week had me dead by the time it was over and the guests all gone. My parents are aging and so is my doggy. They push their limits every single day too. I just hope they dont cave in. I just hope I dont fall dead mid way. Booking hotels, finding economically viable venues for the reception, looking for caterers, hunting for wedding cards, looking up the printing guy, cars for the guests, hotel rooms for the guests, my clothes, my mom's medicines, my dad's post operative care, my doggy's unclipped nails... I even had to drive my fiancee around to buy him his ring when he was here last week!

And today he calls up to ask me if we can push the wedding reception hosted by his family up the calendar. In fact, he wants us to rush to his home town a good 4 hours away  right after the wedding. Thats the most insane request I've ever had! Gimme a break man! Whoz gonna pay off the people whose services we'd be utilising that day- guests need to be checked out of their hotels, they need to be seen off, they need to be attended to for crying out loud- you just dont walk out on them like that! N then therez the wedding hall guy who'd be waiting for his share of the money.Then the transport guys, the caterers...gosh! the list is endless! and he thinks he can just frisk me away?

We'd decided to have the reception on the 17th. Itz been agreed upon...and its not fair on his part to ask us to reschedule the whole thing just coz a few friends of his cant make it to the event coz its a weekday! The wedding is on a weekend- if they truly cared, they'd make it to the wedding.

I am telling you guys, I've really had it up to the top of my head with this whole wedding shit. I am actually beginning to detest the whole idea now. I am gonna just go blow my brains out!